I remember taking my two daughters on a camping trip when they were little. We went for a walk after dark... it was REALLY dark! In the middle of our walk, the flashlight gave out. I tried to not let my girls know that I was terrified. We crept along praying and trying to remember what things looked like when we had light. By the grace of God, we finally arrived where we were supposed to be - "home" in our campsite.
This last month has felt like that to me. My only goal in life is to follow God's will (and to not drive my husband crazy!) It all seemed so clear a month ago but I have had lots of time to think and pray during this snowstorm. For most of my time since I rededicated my life to the Lord in 1998, I have known exactly what God has wanted me to do. It isn't so clear right now. I have no clue what part I will play at the ranch - I can't see it and I think that is exactly what God wants right now. To walk by faith and trust in Him.
I went to a Chris Tomlin concert Sunday and his lyrics to "Sovereign" hit me over the head:
Sovereign in the mountain air
Sovereign on the ocean floor
With me in the calm
With me in the storm
Sovereign in my greatest joy
In my deepest cry
With me in the dark
With me at the dawn
In your everlasting arm
All the pieces of my life
From beginning to the end
I can trust you
In your never failing love
You work everything for good
God whatever comes my way
I will trust you
